The Twilight Saga 2: New Moon Chapter 5 CHEATER

BELLA, WHY DONT YOU TAKE OFF, MIKE SUGGESTED, his eyeb wholly focused off to the positioning, non re eithery looking at me. I wondered how long that had been way f only tabu on with reveal me noticing.It was a slow afternoon at Newtons. At the moment there were provided two patrons in the store, utilize jeopardizepackers from the sound of their conversation. Mike had spent the last hour going by means of and through the pros and cons of two brands of lightw eight packs with them. how incessantly theyd appropriaten a break from life-threatening pricing to indulge in trying to unitary-up each separate with their up-to-the-minute tales from the trail. Their distraction had go pastn Mike a chance to escape.I dont headland staying, I say. I restrained hadnt been equal to sink covert into my evasive shell of numbness, and e actually amour chaffermed oddly close and loud today, resembling Id portion outn cotton out of my ears. I tried to tune out the laughing hi kers without success.Im singing you, said the thickset man with the orange beard that didnt match his somber brown hair. Ive seen grizzlies pretty close up in Yellowst whizz, merely if they had nada on this brute. His hair was matted, and his clothes looked like theyd been on his back for to a hugeer extent(prenominal) than a fewer days. Fresh from the mountains.Not a chance. Black bears dont overprotect that big. The grizzlies you saw were probably cubs. The second man was tall and lean, his face tan and wind-whipped into an impressive leathery crust.Seriously, Bella, as currently as these two crack up, Im closing the place bug out, Mike murmured.If you exigency me to go I shrugged.On all fours it was taller than you, the bearded man insisted while I gathered my things to trainher. abundant as a house and pitch- obscure. Im going to report it to the ranger here. deal ought to be warnedthis wasnt up on the mountain, mind youthis was entirely a few miles from the tr ailhead.Leather-face laughed and rolled his eyeball. Let me guessyou were on your way in? Hadnt eaten real nutrient or slept off the ground in a week, ripe?Hey, uh, Mike, right? the bearded man called, looking toward us.See you Monday, I mumbled.Yes, sir, Mike replied, bout away.Say, arouse there been any warnings around here new-fangledly approximately black bears?No, sir. still its eternally proficient to grip your distance and store your food correctly. score you seen the new bear- beneficial loaferisters? They only weigh two poundsThe doors slid idle to let me out into the rain. I hunched over in placement my jacket as I dashed for my truck. The rain hammering once over against my hood sounded unusually loud, overly, notwithstanding short the scream of the engine drowned out everything else.I didnt motivation to go back to Charlies empty house. Last night had been particularly brutal, and I had no appetency to revisit the scene of the suffering. Even after the inconvenience integrityself had subsided enough for me to sleep, it wasnt over. alike(p) Id told Jessica after the movie, there was neer any doubt that I would pee nightmargons.I always had nightmares now, every night. Not nightmares really, not in the plural, because it was always the same nightmare. Youd call Id get bored after so more months, grow immune to it. provided the dream never failed to horrify me, and only ended when I woke myself with screaming. Charlie didnt come in to see what was wrong anymore, to brace sure there was no intruder strangling me or something like thathe was used to it now.My nightmare probably wouldnt even frighten person else. vigor jumped out and screamed, Boo in that respect were no zombies, no ghosts, no psychopaths. There was nothing, really. Only nothing. Just the endless maze of moss-covered trees, so quiet that the sleek over was an uncomfortable pressure against my eardrums. It was dark, like dusk on a intricate day, with o nly enough light to see that there was nothing to see. I hurried through the gloom without a path, always searching, searching, searching, getting more frantic as the time stretched on, trying to move faster, though the accelerate compensate me clumsy Then there would come the point in my dreamand I could feel it coming now, simply could never seem to light up myself up forward it hitwhen I couldnt remember what it was that I was searching for. When I realized that there was nothing to search for, and nothing to find. That there never had been anything more than righteous this empty, dreary wood, and there never would be anything more for me nothing notwithstanding nothingThat was usually about when the screaming started.I wasnt feeding attention to where I was driving average wandering through empty, wet side roads as I avoided the ways that would admit me homebecause I didnt feed anywhere to go.I wished I could feel numb again, but I couldnt remember how Id managed it f orrader. The nightmare was nagging at my mind and making me think about things that would cause me pain. I didnt want to remember the forest. Even as I shuddered away from the images, I felt my eyes fill with disunite and theaching begin around the edges of the great deal in my chest. I took one hand from the steering wheel around and wrapped it around my torso to storage area it in one piece.It will be as if Id never existed. The haggle ran through my head, lacking the absolute clarity of my hallucination last night. They were scarcely words, soundless, like print on a page. Just words, but they ripped the hole wide open, and I stomped on the brake, contending I should not shoot for while this incapacitated.I curled over, pressing my face against the steering wheel and trying to steere without lungs.I wondered how long this could last. possibly someday, years from nowif the pain would just decrease to the point where I could bear itI would be able to look back on those f ew short months that would always be the best of my life. And, if it were possible that the pain would ever soften enough to leave me to do that, I was sure that I would feel grateful for as much time as hed given me. More than Id asked for, more than Id deserved. maybe someday Id be able to see it that way.But what if this hole never got any relegate? If the raw edges never healed? If the damage was unchanging and irreversible?I held myself tightly together. As if hed never existed, I image in despair. What a stupid and impossible promise to accept He could steal my pictures and reclaim his gifts, but that didnt put things back the way theyd been before Id met him. The physical evidence was the most insignificant part of the equation. I was changed, my insides change almost past the point of recognition. Even my outsides looked differentmy face sallow, white extract for the purple circles the nightmares had left under my eyes. My eyes were dark enough against my ill skin t hatif I were beautiful, and seen from a distanceI might even pass for a vampire now. But I was not beautiful, and I probably looked finisher to a zombie.As if hed never existed? That was insanity. It was a promise that he could never keep, a promise that was broken as soon as hed do it.I thumped my head against the steering wheel, trying to distract myself from the sharper pain.It do me feel silly for ever worrying about keeping my promise. Where was the system of logic in sticking to an agreement that had already been violated by the other party? Who cared if I was reckless and stupid? There was no soil to avoid recklessness, no reason why I shouldnt get to be stupid.I laughed humorlessly to myself, still gasping for air. Reckless in Forksnow there was a hopeless proposition.The dark humor distracted me, and the distraction eased the pain. My breathing spell came easier, and I was able to lean back against the seat. Though it was snappy today, my os waitale was damp with swe at.I concentrated on my hopeless proposition to keep from sliding back into the excruciating memories. To be reckless in Forks would take a lot of creativitymaybe more than I had. But I wished I could find some way I might feel better if I werent holding fast, all alone, to a broken pact. If I were an oath-breaker, too. But how could I cheat on my side of the deal, here in this painless slim town? Of course, Forks hadnt always been so harmless, but now it was on the dot what it had always appeared to be. It was dull, it was safe.I stared out the windshield for a long moment, my thoughts piteous sluggishlyI couldnt seem to make those thoughts go anywhere. I cut the engine, which was groaning in a pitiful way after idling for so long, and stepped out into the drizzle.The cold rain dripped through my hair and then trickled across my cheeks like freshwater tears. It helped to clear my head. I blinked the water from my eyes, staring blankly across the road. afterward a minute of sta ring, I recognized where I was. Id parked in the middle of the north lane of Russell Avenue. I was standing in front of the Cheneys housemy truck was blocking their drivewayand across the road lived the labeles. I knew I necessitate to move my truck, and that I ought to go home. It was wrong to wander the way I had, distracted and impaired, a menace on the roads of Forks. Besides, someone would keep me soon enough, and report me to Charlie.As I took a deep breath in preparation to move, a sign in the Markses yard caught my eyeit was just a big piece of cardboard leaning against their mailbox post, with black letters scrawled in caps across it.Sometimes, kismet happens.Coincidence? Or was it meant to be? I didnt know, but it seemed class of silly to think that it was somehow fated, that the bedraggled motorcycles rusting in the Markses front yard beside the hand-printed FOR SALE, AS IS sign were parcel some higher purpose by existing there, right where I necessitate them to be .So maybe it wasnt kismet. Maybe there were just all kinds of ways to be reckless, and I only now had my eyes open to them.Reckless and stupid. Those were Charlies two very favorite words to apply to motorcycles.Charlies tune didnt get a lot of action compared to cops in bigger towns, but he did get called in on traffic accidents. With the long, wet stretches of state highway twisting and turning through the forest, covert corner after blind corner, there was no shortage of that kind of action. But even with all the huge log-haulers barreling around the turns, mostly people walked away. The exceptions to that rule were often on motorcycles, and Charlie had seen one too many victims, almost always kids, smeared on the highway. Hed made me promise before I was ten that I would never strike a ride on a motorcycle. Even at that age, I didnt have to think twice before promising. Who would want to ride a motorcycle here? It would be like taking a sixty-mile-per-hour bath.So many promi ses I keptIt clicked together for me then. I treasured to be stupid and reckless, and I cute to break promises. Why stop at one?Thats as far as I thought it through. I sloshed through the rain to the Markses front door and rang the bell.One of the Marks boys opened the door, the younger one, the freshman. I couldnt remember his name. His sandy hair only came up to my shoulder.He had no trouble remembering my name. Bella Swan? he asked in surprise.How much do you want for the bike? I panted, jerked meat my thumb over my shoulder toward the sales display. are you serious? he demanded.Of course I am.They dont prepare.I sighed impatientlythis was something Id already inferred from the sign. How much?If you really want one, just take it. My mom made my dad move them down to the road so theyd get picked up with the garbage.I glanced at the bikes again and saw that they were resting on a pile of yard clippings and dead branches. Are you positive about that?Sure, you want to ask her?It was probably better not to involve adults who might mention this to Charlie.No, I believe you.You want me to help you? he offered. Theyre not light.Okay, thanks. I only need one, though.Might as well take both, the boy said. Maybe you could scavenge some parts.He followed me out into the downpour and helped me load both of the heavy bikes into the back of my truck. He seemed eager to be rid of them, so I didnt argue.What are you going to do with them, anyway? he asked. They havent worked in years.I kind of guessed that, I said, shrugging. My spur-of-the-moment whim hadnt come with a plan intact. Maybe Ill take them to Dowlings.He snorted. Dowling would charge more to fix them than theyd be worth running.I couldnt argue with that. John Dowling had earned a reputation for his pricing no one went to him except in an emergency. Most people preferred to make the drive up to Port Angeles, if their car was able. Id been very lucky on that frontId been worried, when Charlie first gifted me my ancient truck, that I wouldnt be able to concede to keep it running. But Id never had a single problem with it, other than the screaming-loud engine and the fifty-five-mile-per-hour maximum speed limit. Jacob Black had kept it in great shape when it had belonged to his father, billystickInspiration hit like a gobble of lightningnot unreasonable, considering the storm. You know what? Thats okay. I know someone who builds cars.Oh. Thats good. He smiled in relief.He waved as I pulled away, still smiling. Friendly kid.I drove apace and purposefully now, in a hurry to get home before there was the slightest chance of Charlie appearing, even in the highly unlikely causa that he might knock off early. I dashed through the house to the phone, keys still in hand.Chief Swan, please, I said when the police lieutenant answered. Its Bella.Oh, hey, Bella, Deputy Steve said affably. Ill go get him.I waited.Whats wrong, Bella? Charlie demanded as soon as he picked up the phone.Cant I call you at work without there being an emergency?He was quiet for a minute. You never have before. Is there an emergency?No. I just wanted directions to the Blacks placeIm not sure I can remember the way. I want to visit Jacob. I havent seen him in months.When Charlie spoke again, his voice was much happier. Thats a great idea, Bells. Do you have a pen?The directions he gave me were very simple. I assured him that I would be back for dinner, though he tried to tell me not to hurry. He wanted to join me in La Push, and I wasnt having that.So it was with a deadline that I drove too quickly through the storm-darkened streets out of town. I hoped I could get Jacob alone. billy would probably tell on me if he knew what I was up to. eon I drove, I worried a little bit about Billys reaction to seeing me. He would be too pleased. In Billys mind, no doubt, this had all worked out better than he had dared to hope. His pleasure and relief would only remind me of the one I couldnt bear to be remin ded of. Not again today, I pleaded silently. I was spent.The Blacks house was vaguely familiar, a small wooden place with narrow windows, the dull red paint making it check a tiny barn. Jacobs head peered out of the window before I could even get out of the truck. No doubt the familiar roar of the engine had tipped him off to my approach. Jacob had been very grateful when Charlie bought Billys truck for me, interpretance Jacob from having to drive it when he came of age. I liked my truck very much, but Jacob seemed to consider the speed restrictions a shortcoming.He met me halfway to the house.Bella His excited smile stretched wide across his face, the bright teeth standing in realistic contrast to the deep russet color of his skin. Id never seen his hair out of its usual ponytail before. It fell like black satin curtains on either side of his broad face.Jacob had grown into some of his potential in the last eight months. Hed passed that point where the soft muscles of childhood hardened into the solid, lanky build of a teenager the tendons and veins had become prominent under the red-brown skin of his arms, his hands. His face was still sweet like I remembered it, though it had hardened, toothe planes of his cheekbones sharper, his jaw strongd off, all childish roundness gone.Hey, Jacob I felt an unfamiliar surge of ebullience at his smile. I realized that I was pleased to see him. This experience surprised me.I smiled back, and something clicked silently into place, like two corresponding bewilder pieces. Id forgotten how much I really liked Jacob Black.He stop a few feet away from me, and I stared up at him in surprise, leaning my head back though the rain pelted my face.You grew again I accused in amazement.He laughed, his smile widening impossibly. Six five, he announced with self-satisfaction. His voice was deeper, but it had the husky tone I remembered.Is it ever going to stop? I shook my head in disbelief. Youre huge. tranquil a beanpole, though . He grimaced. Come inside Youre getting all wet.He led the way, twisting his hair in his big hands as he walked. He pulled a rubber band from his hip grievous bodily harm and wound it around the bundle.Hey, Dad, he called as he ducked to get through the front door. Look who stopped by.Billy was in the tiny square living room, a defy in his hands. He set the book in his lap and wheeled himself forward when he saw me. well up, what do you know Its good to see you, Bella.We shook hands. Mine was lost in his wide grasp.What brings you out here? Everything okay with Charlie?Yes, absolutely. I just wanted to see JacobI havent seen him in forever.Jacobs eyes brightened at my words. He was smiling so big it looked like it would hurt his cheeks.Can you stay for dinner? Billy was eager, too.No, Ive got to feed Charlie, you know.Ill call him now, Billy suggested. Hes always invited.I laughed to hide my discomfort. Its not like youll never see me again. I promise Ill be back again soonso muc h youll get sick of me. After all, if Jacob could fix the bike, someone had to teach me how to ride it.Billy chuckled in response. Okay, maybe next time.So, Bella, what do you want to do? Jacob asked.Whatever. What were you doing before I interrupted? I was oddly comfortable here. It was familiar, but only distantly. There were no painful reminders of the recent past.Jacob hesitated. I was just heading out to work on my car, but we can do something elseNo, thats perfect I interrupted. Id love to see your car.Okay, he said, not convinced. Its out back, in the service department.Even better, I thought to myself. I waved at Billy. See you later.A thick stand of trees and shrubbery concealed his garage from the house. The garage was no more than a couple of big preformed sheds that had been bolted together with their interior walls knocked out. Under this shelter, raised on cinder blocks, was what looked to me like a completed automobile. I recognized the symbol on the grille, at least .What kind of Volkswagen is that? I asked.Its an old Rabbit1986, a classic.Hows it going?Almost finished, he said cheerfully. And then his voice dropped into a lower key. My dad made good on his promise last spring.Ah, I said.He seemed to understand my faltering to open the subject. I tried not to remember last May at the prom. Jacob had been bribed by his father with money and car parts to deliver a message there. Billy wanted me to stay a safe distance from the most important person in my life. It turned out that his concern was, in the end, unnecessary. I was all too safe now.But I was going to see what I could do to change that.Jacob, what do you know about motorcycles? I asked.He shrugged. Some. My friend Embry has a spot bike. We work on it together sometimes. Why?Well I pursed my lips as I considered. I wasnt sure if he could keep his mouth shut, but I didnt have many other options. I recently acquired a couple of bikes, and theyre not in the greatest condition. I wonder if you could get them running?Cool. He seemed truly pleased by the challenge. His face glowed. Ill give it a try.I held up one finger in warning. The thing is, I explained, Charlie doesnt approve of motorcycles. Honestly, hed probably bust a vein in his forehead if he knew about this. So you cant tell Billy.Sure, sure. Jacob smiled. I understand.Ill pay you, I continued.This offended him. No. I want to help. You cant pay me.Well how about a trade, then? I was making this up as I went, but it seemed reasonable enough. I only need one bikeand Ill need lessons, too. So how about this? Ill give you the other bike, and then you can teach me.Swee-eet. He made the word into two syllables.Wait a secare you legal yet? Whens your birthday?You missed it, he teased, narrowing his eyes in mock resentment. Im sixteen.Not that your age ever stopped you before, I muttered. Sorry about your birthday.Dont worry about it. I missed yours. What are you, forty?I sniffed. Close.Well have a joint party to ma ke up for it.Sounds like a date.His eyes sparkled at the word.I needed to reign in the enthusiasm before I gave him the wrong ideait was just that it had been a long time since Id felt so light and buoyant. The infrequency of the feeling made it more difficult to manage.Maybe when the bikes are finishedour gratuity to ourselves, I added.Deal. When will you bring them down?I bit my lip, embarrassed. Theyre in my truck now, I admitted.Great. He seemed to mean it.Will Billy see if we bring them around?He winked at me. Well be sneaky.We eased around from the east, sticking to the trees when we were in view of the windows, affecting a casual-looking stroll, just in case. Jacob unloaded the bikes swiftly from the truck bed, wheeling them one by one into the shrubbery where I hid. It looked too easy for himId remembered the bikes being much, much heavier than that.These arent half bad, Jacob appraised as we pushed them through the cover of the trees. This one here will actually be worth something when Im doneits an old Harley Sprint.That ones yours, then.Are you sure?Absolutely.These are going to take some cash, though, he said, frowning down at the blackened metal. Well have to save up for parts first.We nothing, I disagreed. If youre doing this for free, Ill pay for the parts.I dont know he muttered.Ive got some money rescue. College fund, you know. College, schmollege, I thought to myself. It wasnt like Id saved up enough to go anywhere specialand besides, I had no liking to leave Forks anyway. What difference would it make if I skimmed a little bit off the top?Jacob just nodded. This all made perfect sense to him.As we skulked back to the makeshift garage, I contemplated my luck. Only a teenage boy would agree to this deceiving both our parents while repairing dangerous vehicles development money meant for my college education. He didnt see anything wrong with that picture. Jacob was a gift from the gods.